Late Night Musing

Finding Neverland is a soooper nice show! i liked the cinematography. and johnny depp. and the cute little boy. and even kate winslet. really touching show. it'll probably go down as one of my fave shows this year.

was just thinking just now... sometimes i find it hard to talk to certain people.. close friends included. maybe it's just that i'm weird or anti-social.

but then again, there are some people whom i can just talk to with complete ease... without having to strain my brain thinking of some topic to talk about to avoid silence. people whom i can totally be myself with. i can wear whatever i want. these people i can talk to about stuff that others show no interest in.. stuff that i really wanna talk about. like... music? hmm. especially music. somehow i find it hard to find others with the same interests. so it's rather exciting when i do. hah.

most of the time i feel like i'm holding back.

some people make me feel like i'm being judged by them so i'd rather not talk, or stick to 'safe' topics when with them. and i can't stand those who think that their views are the best ones and try to impose their opinions on me. but that's another story...

confabulation. anytime. anywhere. anything.

since there are people whom i can have decent conversations with, i don't think that i'm anti-social after all. just that... the rest of the time it's hard i guess.

sometimes i don't even feel like making the effort to talk. hm. ok, but that's my point. i shouldn't have to make an effort. it should be effortless. that's when you know that person and you can, for want of a better word, connect.

i need more connections.

listening to: i love you for sentimental reasons - laura fygi