On Disappointment (Part two)

"At first it can be very hard to accept how disappointing life is because that's what it is and you have to accept it. With faith and time and hard work you reach a point... where the disappointment doesn't hurt as much, and then it gets actually easy to live with. Quite easy. Which is in its own way a disappointment. But. There."

- Angels in America

Rent me a Little Prince

caught The Little Prince today! hee. it was so fun! there were many many kids there and they got restless after awhile and started making lots of noise. but i guess that's just something you have to accept if u wanna watch a kids play. hur. anyways! it was time well spent cause the show was funny, thought provoking, i liked the actors, and the costumes were gorgeous!

there was a Q and A after the show, but nobody asked any questions so the actors asked us what we thought happened to the little prince in the end.

what the kids thought...
"he grew up!"

"he went home!"

what the grown ups were thinking but didn't wanna say...

"he died!"

In contrast to The Little Prince (which only cost 16bucks!), Rent was so boring people actually fell asleep. it was going on and on forever (about 2.5hrs) and i just wanted to get out. the singing was good though. i'll give them that. oh and kallang theatre really sucks cause they always let people in even if they are friggin half an hour late! it's bloody irritating when there are people walking around blocking your view and ushers shining their torches all over. for heaven's sake, just let em stand at the back till intermission. they deserve it. bah. i'm just glad i didn't have to pay for my ticket.

i bought a monkey today. a stuffed toy monkey, that is. he's damn cute and feels furry and nice. he's really flexible, so i make him do tricks like flipping over and stuff. i like him, so i hung him on the handle of my drawer. i thought i'd name him mr. monks cause it sounds funny. but now i've decided to call him marcel. after Ross's (from friends!) monkey! marcel!

and now it's back to my books.

On Mess

my room's in an amazing mess. it looks like a junkyard/ war zone. like a hurricane just made a visit. i can't see the floor. i have to walk over stuff to get to my bed. when i get to my bed i have to throw stuff off it so i can have space for myself. i can't see my tabletop cos it's littered with paper and books and chocolate wrappings. hur. it's quite unbelievable, really. best part is, i don't have time to clear the mess.

but i have time to blog about it.

On Disappointment

disappointment is like a whiff of body odour. you never know when it's gonna hit and when it does, it stinks. real. bad.

On Death and Exams

am having difficulty breathing. which got me thinking about dying in my sleep. i used to think that would be the best way to die. and i guess it still is. but the thought of going to sleep and never waking up ever again is kinda scary. and the funny thing is if that were to happen, i don't think my parents would even find out about it. they'd prolly find me a few days later when they smell something funny coming from my room. haha.

so anyway, i realised that i've actually got alot more to study for the exams than i thought. got a stack of readings to do. and many films to watch. the thought of sitting in the library in discomfort for hours to watch films kills me. sigh. and i was so happy thinking that i could slack since i have 2 weeks to study. but looking at the rate i'm going, now it seems 2 weeks isn't gonna be enough. going through that typical stressed-because-i'm-not-stressed phase. oh well. let's see how much i can squeeze in before the exams.

maybe that's why i'm having difficulty breathing. anxiety. ahhh. start. mugging.