On Death and Exams

am having difficulty breathing. which got me thinking about dying in my sleep. i used to think that would be the best way to die. and i guess it still is. but the thought of going to sleep and never waking up ever again is kinda scary. and the funny thing is if that were to happen, i don't think my parents would even find out about it. they'd prolly find me a few days later when they smell something funny coming from my room. haha.

so anyway, i realised that i've actually got alot more to study for the exams than i thought. got a stack of readings to do. and many films to watch. the thought of sitting in the library in discomfort for hours to watch films kills me. sigh. and i was so happy thinking that i could slack since i have 2 weeks to study. but looking at the rate i'm going, now it seems 2 weeks isn't gonna be enough. going through that typical stressed-because-i'm-not-stressed phase. oh well. let's see how much i can squeeze in before the exams.

maybe that's why i'm having difficulty breathing. anxiety. ahhh. start. mugging.