On Mess

my room's in an amazing mess. it looks like a junkyard/ war zone. like a hurricane just made a visit. i can't see the floor. i have to walk over stuff to get to my bed. when i get to my bed i have to throw stuff off it so i can have space for myself. i can't see my tabletop cos it's littered with paper and books and chocolate wrappings. hur. it's quite unbelievable, really. best part is, i don't have time to clear the mess.

but i have time to blog about it.

On Disappointment

disappointment is like a whiff of body odour. you never know when it's gonna hit and when it does, it stinks. real. bad.

On Death and Exams

am having difficulty breathing. which got me thinking about dying in my sleep. i used to think that would be the best way to die. and i guess it still is. but the thought of going to sleep and never waking up ever again is kinda scary. and the funny thing is if that were to happen, i don't think my parents would even find out about it. they'd prolly find me a few days later when they smell something funny coming from my room. haha.

so anyway, i realised that i've actually got alot more to study for the exams than i thought. got a stack of readings to do. and many films to watch. the thought of sitting in the library in discomfort for hours to watch films kills me. sigh. and i was so happy thinking that i could slack since i have 2 weeks to study. but looking at the rate i'm going, now it seems 2 weeks isn't gonna be enough. going through that typical stressed-because-i'm-not-stressed phase. oh well. let's see how much i can squeeze in before the exams.

maybe that's why i'm having difficulty breathing. anxiety. ahhh. start. mugging.

essays debilitate me

it's been pouring for hours

i need some sleep

hello, world

here's a little song for all the sad people...

Smile - Nat King Cole

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile