Long Day

went to town in the mornin to pass receipts to Rachel. yay got back my money! then my phone was running out of batt and i was so nervous cos still had to contact Weng (tnx for help!)regarding my bidding and movie later. then finally my phone died at a crucial moment... so didn't know how many tix to get haha. sigh.. realised tt it's so troublesome to not have a hp. have to settle a proper meeting place and all if not you'll never be able to find ur friend. was feeling uneasy the whole while plus i couldn't reply ppl's msgs.

so caught Mean Girls with weng, melch and joel. i remember telling myself i wouldn't watch this stupid show but it was ok i guess. entertaining and bitchy lah haha. later mitch, maurice and teresa met us for dinner. so spontaneous.. more ppl just keep joining us haha. went to Billy Bombers at Heeren. somehow the food there now not as nice as i remembered it to be. maybe it's just that branch. after tt we went to the rooftop of Paragon and we were talking so much rubbish! making fun of certain ppl n all haha. wheeee! so fun.

 
oh and we bought tix to Private Parts tmr! wahey! abit ex and good seats are gone but.. oh well. it'd better be good. class gathering tmr as well. i'm excited! haven't seen most of them since we graduated! so yup. lookin forward to tt...

Blog!

today i went to weng's hse to paint pebbles for her brother's wedding! owen's so cute! or rather so ACT cute! he's doing it more and more it seems. haha.

lalala.. i'm extremely bored.

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realised i haven't been listening to music lately. not at all (unless u count songs from Francis: the musical). not long ago i was listening to music non-stop until my mom complained about the noise at night. 

went for the arts chalet thing just now.. was quite fun. almost stayed over but decided that the comfort of my home and clean clothes was a better choice. ended up talking abt Francis.. and singing the songs. haha. the songs are all so nice. the lyrics are so meaningful and you can relate to them. and can dance to the songs, or make fun of them. haha.. yesh, we really should do a parody of the whole musical man.. it'd be hilarious. could call it Francis: the spoof. or something...

anyways, i'm feeling old again. charmaine, was at the chalet... and i remembered that she was in CJ first three months when i was in my second yr. can still rem her in KC uniform. and she went for our orientation camp and cgs.. i even rem she wrote 'i love KC' on some paper during cg. den suddenly she's in NUS. geez.. time really flies. one min she's in her KC uniform and now she's in NUS.

and i can't believe it. we got lost in downtown east! wah lau... didn't see the HUGE 'aranda country club' sign and just ditzily waltzed past it being attracted to wild wild wet. ended up walking the whole of downtown east. haha.. sigh. sounds so bim. oh well... at least we were at the right place.. and not like at jurong or something. haha.

bidding tmr! oh please, please let me get my modules.

it's a sure sign that school is starting when your NUS mailbox starts to flood again.

What Is Wrong With Me?

think i'm having delayed reactions... i didn't cry yesterday.. ok well i might have teared a little.. just a little. but today, just thinking about everything and reading people's blogs about Francis made me cry.

am i getting more emo?? i fear it is true...

i don't even remember crying on graduation day in CJ. i was very sad too... but i didn't cry. so i guess the only explanation is that i'm getting more emo. sigh. or maybe it's because for the first time in my one year in NUS, i've actually felt so much love and camaraderie.. and now it's over. i woke up this afternoon feeling so sad with that realisation. one day we might celebrate reunion... when will that be?

module selection sucks... i don't know what mods to do.. as in.. the mods that i wanna do are not offered this sem. some are not even offered in sem 2! what crap. i'm stuck. can't even find five mods to do... sigh. and i'm afraid of making the wrong choices. and i might not even get the mods that i'm intending to bid for. i need a back up plan and i don't have one. so far i've decided on Brit Comedy, Marketing the Arts, Film and History.

but other than that, i think i'm finally ready to get back to school. kinda looking forward to it now... after dreading it for the past 3 months haha. after being so busy with Francis, i wouldn't be able to stand being so free.. need to keep myself occupied. plus, i wanna see everybody again.. well, those who are still around that is.

happy bidding one and all.

What an Experience

months of hardwork just over in a flash. this whole thing.. this journey, has been most wonderful. it's something that i won't forget any time soon. there was so much love, so much heart in this production. it's something i don't know if i will ever experience again.

there were a few screw ups today.. but it was a moving performance nonetheless. at the end of it, ppl were crying.. dono tears of joy or sadness.. prolly both lah. i was trying not to cry. hah. but walking backstage later when clearing up.. seeing the place so quiet and empty... i felt so so sad! we'll never sit in tt room doing hair while listening to the crap that goes on in that room again. i'll miss getting frustrated with weng over the messed up costumes. i'll miss the stupid squire babalance joke. i'll miss ben and john's quick change feat which we'd managed so well. i'll miss the shit that goes on backstage. i'll miss the bitching. oh crap, i'll even miss staying back to spray febreeze on the disgusting costumes. most of all, i'll miss the ppl.

just now i was telling derrick that i wanna be a friar too, then he kept asking me to try on the robe and take photos. haha. but aiya a bit funny lah so i didn't want to. later brother jo said i wouldn't make it into the friary cos my reasons for joining are for the nice robes and house. hah. but it sounds so fun... the friary... what with braiding armpit hair and all!! hahah! funny lah those two. will miss them friars much. even JP and his 4 nights in a row 'more hair then' joke!

i'll also miss the times backstage where we'd set up our own dancefloor. haha. i'll miss joel's fabulously hilarious imitation of a certain someone. i'll miss victor's noise. i'll miss the busy crew moving the sets in and out while i get in the way. i'll miss having to squeeze here and there to get a look at the performance and having our own performance backstage.

SIGH. i know i must sound so emo.. wat a sad sod. but for the past two weeks or so, everyday has just been solely about Francis. i didn't even know what day was what. everyday felt the same.. like today didn't feel like a sunday. and it didn't really matter. it's such a great feeling to be so totally immersed in a thing that you lose track of everything else. it kinda takes your mind away from the stuff that you don't want to think about. now that Francis is over.. i know that i'm gonna feel so.... empty. like there's something big missing. tmr is gonna be so boring. nothing to look forward to (bidding for modules does not count). no more show to put up, no more hair to gel, no more fellowship... no more.

hell, i sound so drama. but this is really how i'm feeling right now. and i can't remember feeling like this in a long time.. the last time was prolly after de-investiture. i don't think i can sleep tonight cos i'm 'high on Francis'.

i really hope that those who watched Francis were touched by it.. cos i was. the story's so simple yet sincere and moving. before this i only knew St. Francis as the channel-of-your-peace guy but now he's so much more to me. i've learnt SO much from this musical... mostly about love. the essence of love. and i'm so thankful for having been a part of this. looking back, i think it's real funny how much i used to complain about getting myself into this and yet now i have absolutely no regrets. i've learnt that God is indeed the greatest adventure.. and it's such a valuable lesson learnt. this adventure might seem to have come to an end... but maybe.. just maybe it's only the beginning....

everything i'm giving is Yours and i give it because that's the essence of love...

Don't Know What To Feel

i'm excited about tonight.. can't wait for it to begin.. yet i don't want it to end! aaaargh! i know it's gonna be hella fun later, yet i know i'll be feeling very very sad after that. gosh.. it's such a nice feeling to be this excited. heh. good luck to us. will blog later!

Fantastic!

whoa ho! i have to start thinking of more adjectives to describe Francis each night. i think this was the best night so far! energy level was pretty high.. i think. julian miraculously got his voice back during the performance.. and like right after it, it was gone again. just thank God that his voice was ok for that 2 hours! amazing huh. julian lee was feeling sick for awhile but lucky he was ok enuf to go on later. phew. oh had some trouble with the stupid habits.. getting caught in mel ngo's hair and coming off bern's, causing her to get disorientated and crash into the curtains ! haha! but was quite funny i guess. today was also bad hair day for everyone. hope tmr's good! had the usual rubbish goin on in da room. oh and everyone kept calling me glamour girl thanks to my t-shirt haha so stupidly funny. i like tt shirt. haha.

ooh benjy said our costumes were very nice!! said we shd go into business hahahhahaha. yay! and ms ng was there too! and once again, the audience seemed to like our hideous yellow vest! hahah. hilarious.

sigh tmr's the last day. some ppl were already crying today. wonder wat it'd be like tmr. i'm gonna be so sad! and just a few weeks ago i thought i'd be happy it's over. it's always like that isn't it. never appreciate a thing till it's gone. despite that.. i'm really happy today! cos it was another job well done by the cast and crew! yay! pray that tmr night will be even better!

oh and in other news. nick's band performed today and i missed it cos i was slpg! and i've always been saying to mel tt i wanna see his band. sigh. and have yet to see the much talked abt ivan too. heh. he plays the drums somemore. dang. i sleep too much.

What a 2nd Night!

lousy title but it was so fun today!!

the lights screwed up AGAIN! wah lao. but nvm.. Iggy did well today as did michelle. poor julian lost his voice. hope it's well by tmr!

oh man it was crazy during makeup today! Victor kept spoofing the songs! someone (can't rem who) called them 'porn version'. haha. yesterday and today all the guys were cracking dirty jokes with the lines in the show while doing their hair n makeup. ya and even the word 'doing' had terrible implications. hahaha. even our dear derrick joined in. he's so funny and bitchy for a friar. haha. i didn't get some of the jokes tho. ah i'm innocent ok! hah. yesterday i was the only girl in the room and it was kinda er.. weird? listening to the guys talk like tt. hahaha. and when it's just the girls in the room.. funny shit goes round too... and not to mention some questions about priests. hmm....

oh man.. wat a funny day! haven't enjoyed myself like so in a long time! oh and i still hate doing hair! altho i think i'm kinda getting the hang of it. heh. looking forward to another day of gel, gel, and more gel... and hairspray... and bitching.. and talking rubbish.. and.....

Amazing!

yay! one down! some minor hiccups but it went well i must say! the audience seemed to laugh at everything.. even stuff tt i didn't think was funny. must be the kids la. some stuff broke, some stuff tore, some ppl got socked in the eye, some felt sick, some got cut on the hand... but all's well. apart from the fact tt i had to hug a certain someone. eww.....! poor me. must be more careful in the future.

feel so happy now. glad that i'm a part of this amazing journey. the recollection thing tt ben did made me realise all the wonderful things tt's happened and made me see the beauty in all the shit we've been thru.

was quite excited before the thing started heh. and everyone looked so happy and relieved after it was over.. it was such an incredible feeling. like.. we're finally here! i can already imagine wat it'd be like on sunday. i just wish it wouldn't have to end so soon.

n i think i lost my bottle! hope can find it tmr.

It's Starting!

i dono if it's more apt to say it's ending..? but it is finally here after months of preparation. tmr is our first performance! and for some reason i kept thinking tmr's still rehearsals. haha.

today's runs were good. tho two runs in a day is really taxing. on us and everybody else i'm sure. i so wanted to be sitting in front watching and not having to be at the back trying to get a peek whenever i can. they look so good on stage. yay!

however, costumes n hangers were flung everywhere. total mess. reached a point where we didn't even bother to find their stuff n hang for them. get ur costumes yourselves from wherever u left them and put them back in their proper place thank you very much.

i hate doing hair! at the end of it my hands had gel all over ... eww. plus i have this fear tt their hair will go out of place/come out during the thing. either tt or costumes falling off or getting ripped. hah. but ok, no major screw ups today. lets just hope it stays tt way till sunday. please pray for us.

i'm having fun..... g'nite.

Day 2  
 
today was fun! just go there collect n arrange the costumes. den got to slack around n watch them do the tech run. so nice to finally get a front view. hah.. but tt would be the last. tmr onwards we'll be behind. how boring. i'm finally enjoying Francis and now it's ending. sigh. everything's fun except the waking-up-early-for-sewing-till-our-eyes-pop-out bits. thank God tt's over and done with.  
 
mom got back fm thailand last nite n she got so little stuff for me! she said her taste n mine diff so she dun dare to buy. but tt's true la. i prolly wouldn't have liked half the stuff she bought. she got me nice bras tho haha. i'm happy with tt. asked her to buy undies n she only got three. oh and she got my brother spongebob boxers!! i want!!! they are so cute! she says if my bro can't wear i can have them. but they're so huge lor. sigh. my mom's such a lousy shopper. she always buys stuff tt's expensive n she'd be so happy cos she thinks tt they're cheap. so in the end she didn't know what to finish her money on so she bought a crazy amount of food. oh well...

Moved!
 
from St. Mary's to Jubilee Hall. jub hall is so fun! heh. so old n scary lookin. but i kinda miss St. Mary's tho. tt place was rather nice.
 
seems like i'm too lazy to blog nowadays. ah well.... maybe later.

wow blogger made improvements! diff fonts and colors now! pink!

hello hello. i think i haven't blogged in quite awhile? yeah well... just to let you know... i'm still alive.

i have no life. rehearsals rehearsals rehearsals. but it's been quite fun la. oh and brother joseph is SO cute!! hah i think i'll be condemned to the depths of hell just for saying that. but whatever la. i'm not the only one who thinks so.

okay i'm slpy. gnite.

yet another i-love-cj post

bear with me.

went back for retreat as ms ng needed facils. was more than happy to of cos.

the programme wasn't great it wasn't super fun or anything but it was just awesome to be back! my grp was so quiet. argh. i say sthg and they don't respond. i try to get them to talk they keep quiet.. except for this one girl who couldn't stop talking and i found her super irritating. haha. i mean, she was irrelevant most of the time. but ok watever. i was just happy to be back in cj. oh mass was nice too only tt the lack of sleep made it hard to stop myself fm falling asleep. heh.

i really can't stand the green walls now. it's awful. CJ's color is supposed to be blue and it was so nice before. the green sucks. even so, walking around the school was such a familiar feeling that it was comforting. at one point i even felt like i was a student again.. walking up the main staircase.. the exact same feeling. it was weird. kinda surreal i guess.

and the place's still as scary as ever at night. heh. got goosepimples even. yikes... the meepok man (weng made tt up to scare ourselves!) ... oh oh and the scary toilets too. tho i just love cj toilets! they have been greatly missed.

i remember the place whr my class used to sit in the audi. i rem sitting at the grandstand enjoying the breeze. i rem sitting in the toilet to waste time or use hp. i rem walking as slow as possible to lectures. i rem the feeling of doing morning prayer and getting to look at the whole sch fm the top (ppl sure looked damn sian during assembly). the list cld go on forever la. i miss everything. even having to sing in front of the sch for mornin prayer. how embarrasing yet... fun? hah.. the list cld go on forever lah.

i'm just a crazy CJ frenetic! i oughta get over it.

oh and kenny just msged me. so nice tt outta the blue he decides to catch up. just when i was thinking abt CJ.

have an article and a letter to write. sian! i'm sleepy. shall just do it tmr. gnite ppl! oh, and i hate NUS!

oh man.. i just clicked on ewen's link, expecting to see his blog still dead and all but guess wat?? he revived it! finally lah. i like the new layout. cool.

nthg to blog abt. i'm sleepy and tired. dun wanna blog abt stupid hall thing. cept to say tt according to records i 'withdrew' from hall. wat a humongous load of monkey crap.

tmr is another day...

surprised!

just wanna say a beeeg thankew to Weng, Mel, Sh, Dary, Ewen, Gerald, Bernard AND sunshine n owen too for the surprise and the pressies!! hahaha! you guys are damn GOOD!! esp weng n mel. they were lying to me the whole day! haha! from rehearsal la.. to bring camera (wich i forgot).. to forgetting to take the boots to 'wats for dinner? oh shit we're gonna be late we haf to da bao n take a cab down to rehearsals' to multiple weird phonecalls n changing lightbulbs!! hahahahhahaha! weng comes up with the craziest lies.. at the expense of making her dad sound weird! haha! they were not neccesary also cos i wasn't suspecting anything at all n wouldn't haf asked abt the phonecalls anyway. i'm not tt smart la. haha.. n tt silly gerald called me using ewen's hp n caused some er.. confusion. dunno wats the pt of tt call also hahah. n owen looked so cute running out with the 'sheng ri quai le' written on it haha tho i had some trouble readin it. anyway the surprise worked altho not exactly according to plan? i was genuinely surprised! dint see it comin at all.. not even when i saw the owen. haha. only got it when i saw everyone else.

then dary sent us home and now everyone noes how bad i am with directions. haha. 'we haf to turn right somewhere... HERE! oh shit! nvm. if we miss the turning we can take the next one or the other one. keep left, keep left.. k left here.. NO! NO! NO! ... aiya, all the lefts look the same mah'. oops. i could've gotten us all killed heh. maybe i shouldn't bother getting a lisence. heh.

anyways, was so nice spending time wif them all. esp since the whole day had been so sian with the sewing n the screwed up hall stuff. it's been a long long time since we've been together... all of us. did our usual reminiscing abt da good ol' days. and yes, in ten yrs time we'll stil be doing the same thing.. i hope!

just wanna say that... i'm glad that we can still hang out and have fun like nothing's changed. i love you guys!! *big hugs!* oh and *wet slobbery kisses fm sunshine!*

had din wif yiting, xinye, eugene, franklin n sunshine n caught spiderman2 today! so nice the movie! and the rest of them were nice too cos they dint make me pay a cent cos they paid the 'service charge'. hmm. k i dint get wat they meant. anyway they treated (this sounds weird. like water treatment or sth) me lah for my bday. so it was my bday treat (ahhh ok this sounds much better). yup. so sweet of them. oh they let me try this nail art machine thingy too. the words 'guinea pig' comes into mind tho. ah well... had fun! oh and they made me an instant card outta some leftover piece of paper with someone's doodle on it! haha so silly! n they wrote happy 21st. haha. as if i'm not old enuf.

having ben n jerry's now! heh. butter pecan. their choc flavours are still the best tho. new york superfudge! mmmmmm......

ah ok. gnite all! happy dreaming!

pearls before swine!

i got it! i got it! i got the comic! heh my brother got it for me for my bday. he was like "you want anything? i get for u." me went, "huh! ok!"

shocked lah. suddenly he's so nice. heh. yayyyy! i'm so happy! pearls before swine is soooo funny! i like it more than i like foxtrot and that is ALOT!

went for dinner wif family at some restaurant in the hotel formerly known as the westin stamford. food was so-so. before tt was at ecp... i so wanna rollerblade!! the last time i did was years ago.. i'd prolly just fall on my butt now. heh.

and my parents are so blur can. they dint even realise i cut my hair! so just now i asked my mom, "do i look diff?" then she kept looking and looking.. "what? ur eyebrows?" wah lao. after more looking and wondering finally she noticed tt it was my hair. and my dad was like, "cut so little" !?!!? LITTLE? it's less than half the previous length now! you'd think it'd be obvious, right?? but noooooo... (

and yes, i cut my hair two weeks ago.

oh and my dad's so cute lah. he got an sms during dinner so he took out his specs, put it on, squinted and furrowed his brows, then started replying. he types so SLOW! he said he has the record for the slowest smser. haha.. tt was damn funny... in the light of the recent guiness record for the fastest.

anyway i offered to sms for him but help was not wanted. my old man is independent ok. so he continued sms-ing despite the fact that he could hardly see the letters on the buttons... such determination! such grit! such concentration!

so he took at least five minutes to finish typing. oh and by the way, the sms contained all of three words.

i love my family.

hah how insightful.. 

this is funny too 

i want the pearls and swine comic book!!  

I'm Tired!

woke up super early for sewing. eeeee.. haha. but today's was relatively fun. got use old clothes to make em into ugly looking beggar costumes. heh. so we were like cutting, ripping, and patching. sure beats the usual.

after tt went down to st. mike's for rehearsals. ok i was just there to watch heh. progressed so much since the last time i saw! nice! oh got comments tt our beggar costumes were well done.. in other words, UGLY. but they're supposed to look ugly (haha excuses?).. so yeah job well done! heh.

yay can't wait for everything to be over! just a leeeedle bit more!