What an Experience

months of hardwork just over in a flash. this whole thing.. this journey, has been most wonderful. it's something that i won't forget any time soon. there was so much love, so much heart in this production. it's something i don't know if i will ever experience again.

there were a few screw ups today.. but it was a moving performance nonetheless. at the end of it, ppl were crying.. dono tears of joy or sadness.. prolly both lah. i was trying not to cry. hah. but walking backstage later when clearing up.. seeing the place so quiet and empty... i felt so so sad! we'll never sit in tt room doing hair while listening to the crap that goes on in that room again. i'll miss getting frustrated with weng over the messed up costumes. i'll miss the stupid squire babalance joke. i'll miss ben and john's quick change feat which we'd managed so well. i'll miss the shit that goes on backstage. i'll miss the bitching. oh crap, i'll even miss staying back to spray febreeze on the disgusting costumes. most of all, i'll miss the ppl.

just now i was telling derrick that i wanna be a friar too, then he kept asking me to try on the robe and take photos. haha. but aiya a bit funny lah so i didn't want to. later brother jo said i wouldn't make it into the friary cos my reasons for joining are for the nice robes and house. hah. but it sounds so fun... the friary... what with braiding armpit hair and all!! hahah! funny lah those two. will miss them friars much. even JP and his 4 nights in a row 'more hair then' joke!

i'll also miss the times backstage where we'd set up our own dancefloor. haha. i'll miss joel's fabulously hilarious imitation of a certain someone. i'll miss victor's noise. i'll miss the busy crew moving the sets in and out while i get in the way. i'll miss having to squeeze here and there to get a look at the performance and having our own performance backstage.

SIGH. i know i must sound so emo.. wat a sad sod. but for the past two weeks or so, everyday has just been solely about Francis. i didn't even know what day was what. everyday felt the same.. like today didn't feel like a sunday. and it didn't really matter. it's such a great feeling to be so totally immersed in a thing that you lose track of everything else. it kinda takes your mind away from the stuff that you don't want to think about. now that Francis is over.. i know that i'm gonna feel so.... empty. like there's something big missing. tmr is gonna be so boring. nothing to look forward to (bidding for modules does not count). no more show to put up, no more hair to gel, no more fellowship... no more.

hell, i sound so drama. but this is really how i'm feeling right now. and i can't remember feeling like this in a long time.. the last time was prolly after de-investiture. i don't think i can sleep tonight cos i'm 'high on Francis'.

i really hope that those who watched Francis were touched by it.. cos i was. the story's so simple yet sincere and moving. before this i only knew St. Francis as the channel-of-your-peace guy but now he's so much more to me. i've learnt SO much from this musical... mostly about love. the essence of love. and i'm so thankful for having been a part of this. looking back, i think it's real funny how much i used to complain about getting myself into this and yet now i have absolutely no regrets. i've learnt that God is indeed the greatest adventure.. and it's such a valuable lesson learnt. this adventure might seem to have come to an end... but maybe.. just maybe it's only the beginning....

everything i'm giving is Yours and i give it because that's the essence of love...