It's Over!

our term in Candle that is. today was AGM so yeah now we have a new comm. was kinda weird for me... as in.. i almost wanted to be in comm again. was feeling uneasy abt not joining.. maybe even guilty since we were short of ppl. but i was afraid.. cos i remembered how tired of Candle i was. how i didn't wanna write anymore. and i rem how for the last few issues we were kinda running out of ideas. i didn't really feel like i could contribute anymore to Candle. if i look at my old blog posts, i'd find alot abt being happy to be ending my term in candle. haha. don't mind helping out though. so decided to offer my lousy service to help in layout. hahaaha.. me? doing layout? computer work? HAH. but i'm sian of editing.. so i'd rather try something new. no harm learning right? as long as i don't screw up our layout and become more of a hindrance than help.. hehheh.

everytime i go for AGMs i get the feeling that i shd join. like during arts agm.. ppl asked why i wasn't running for comm. and 'don't feel like it' doesn't really count for a good reason. and during TM as well.. when u see that they are really in need of comm members.. u can't help but feel.. uneasy n guilty?? like u shd be doing something... that maybe it's wat He wants u to do. but how can u be sure anyway? i just keep telling myself 'i don't wanna'. cos i'm scared of the commitment.. cos i'm scared that i'd wanna give up halfway.. scared tt i wldn't be gd enuf. i dono.. just lazy and gutless perhaps. haha.

we had a talk by anthony who was in the first candle comm! one of the founders.. he brgt up some interesting points. he said sth that particularly struck me.. sth abt serving where you're needed. ahhh i can't rem wat he said! damn.

anyway.. wats the point of this post? i dono. gnite.